Responsibility Outweighs Opportunities

28 05 2013

lord-take-my-hand-and-lead-me-500When I was still new here in Thailand, I was so bored that I persisted in praying to God that He will give me something to do. At first my attention were diverted into earning a  living since most of the Filipinos I met here in Nonthaburi are working. I tried doing that to the extent of doing something which I know was wrong. I indeed got a very short shot at it, I was able to teach but in just a so short period. I didn’t have  a problem with the school neither did the school had a problem with me. They even wanted me to stay but unfortunately the agency doesn’t want it to happen. So, it never did happen, I later on realized that God’s plan was entirely different as to what I have in mind as He said in the book of Isaiah 55:8-9 KJV…

8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.

9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

So, after a couple of years of waiting for God’s plan to manifest in my life it finally came to us 2 years ago. He entrusted to us a ministry that I never dream would be possible especially that we are actually foreigners here in Thailand. God let us open an ACE school ministry, at first we were a bit uncertain since there were so many struggles that we have gone through. However, despite of all the challenges and problems we continued to tread the path that God has lead us. It was then that my family saw God’s goodness and hands in showing us His abundant blessings if we only do His will. I started to be involved in our church activities and ministries alongside with the school. We’ve struggled financially and personally but God was always there to lift us up even when those people whom we trusted turned their backs on us.

Today, my heart and soul is in the ministry that God has entrusted to me there are even times that the thought of leaving such ministry scares me. I can’t understand why i felt that way but God showed me the answer to it. He put me to the test by offering me irresistible opportunities that I would desperately grab if it had been offered to me 2 years ago.  I tried to find a way to work it out but my mind kept on bothering me and the thought of not being able to fulfill my commitment to the people that trusted me bothered me. Here it is two opportunities that offers financial sustenance especially that another member of the family is on its way. The more that such worldly matters pressure me the more that the spirit tells me and asked me this question over and over again. “Did God ever abandon you in good times and bad times all these years?”

That question always leads me back to my senses knowing that for several times God literally showed how He works in our lives, i may not earn as much as some of the Filipinos that are here. but one thing is sure, I am content, satisfied and have that peace of mind that some of these people doesn’t have. most importantly i have my God who I can rely on come what may. Does with boldness and with God’s grace and wisdom I was able to resist and turn down the two opportunities and I also hope and pray that god will continue to strengthen me to resist any opportunities that are still on its way. For me the RESPONSIBILITY that God has entrusted to me outweighs all of the opportunities that this world has to offer, after all our Lord Jesus Christ Himself said this in Matthew 6:33 “But seek YE first the kingdom of God, and all THESE THINGS shall be added unto you.” that promise is good enough for me to hang onto.

My decisions may sound stupid and irrational, but i know that this is what God wants me to do and this is what was God’s plan for me and my family that is why He lead us into Thailand.


Eager As a Child

22 04 2013


For several months now we’ve been going back and forth to the site where our Fellow Filipinos are working, it is just sad to know that most of their will end their contracts on May and some of them are going home. This will include their Foreman Celso Quina who’s one of the influence when it comes to letting them attend our Bible studies.

Last Sunday afternoon, we forgot to confirm to him that we are going to conduct the Bible study even though we’ve informed them ahead of time  when they have attended our church service  during the Songkran Holiday (Sunday). That was the reason why there were only a few of them who were able to attend the Bible Study since most of them went out to do their Laundry while others have things to attend to. One of those who attended the Bible study shared to us that they were not really expecting that we will be there since nobody called foreman and informed him. He then said that if someone informs their foreman he usually disseminate the information right so that those who got things to do or things to attend to usually cancel their appointments right away and wait for us to arrive. That is why in the previous Sundays there were almost 20 or more who would attend the Bible study. Last Sunday, although there were just a few of them were not as different as the previous ones. When we arrived there they were playing Basketball since they actually built a make-shift Basketball ring, Kuya Bien Anatan who were the one who led the Bible Study let them finish their game first. We started late but it was worthwhile, when the Bible Study started and Kuya Bien talked about the story of the Rich Fool in Luke 12:13-21, I could see that most of those who attended listened attentively to everything that Kuya Bien is talking. Others have their eyes fixed on him listenin

Some of those who were listening to the Bible study were listening just like a child, savoring every word that Kuya Bien is saying as well as the passages that he’s reading from the Bible. The harvest is plenty indeed but the laborers are few, there came a time that I have second thoughts on attending the Bible study last Sunday. But after what I have witnessed I thank God that I didn’t listened to that tempting small voice telling me to just let the others go instead, just  like a child who is eager to hear a fairy tale story.  During these moments one scene from the movie Jesus of Nazareth came to my mind. It was the scene were Jesus was telling the Parable of the Two sons…. You can see how attentive, interested and eager are the children to hear Jesus’s story. Now this is just a portrayal in a movie but I am pretty sure that the scene is not far from what really occurred during the time of Jesus.

I learned a lot as well from the Bible study, I was just not there to assist but to be inspired and listen as well. One interesting person who attended our Bible study was an Indonesian guy, he also came with the group and attended our Special Songkran Sunday Services.  They told us that this Indo guy prefer to hang out with Filipinos than any other Nationalities that are also working in the Site. I believe he could only understand a little of what Kuya Bien was talking about since most of the time He was speaking Tagalog. But every time I look at the guy he was trying to understand and listen attentively to what the speaker is talking about. He told us that he can understand little English only but I know that God can open his mind to make him understand  about Christ and about our God. God willing the next time we go there and since Kuya Bien promised that he’ll be the one who will led the Bible study once again besides I don’t want to break the momentum that he has started among those who attended the Bible study. I will try to talk to the Indonesian guy and tell him about Jesus, I know that God will open his understanding even if he may say that he only know a little English  little is much when it is given to God.

Sow and You shall Reap

17 04 2013


It has been said that whatsoever thou sowest, that shall also reap. If a person reap kindness in the end He shall also reap kindness, the same as if a person sow hatred or evil, that he shall also reap.

It is amazing how God uses people, ordinary people to bless or be a channel of blessing to His children. With one simple act of kindness that we have shown to Pat, it had made a great impact in his life. it was a long time a go since we have helped this young man but up until today, all he desires is to help us in any way he can. Even if he doesn’t really have that much, he always think about us. Every time he visit us he would always say that once he finishes his studies and become a professional, he’ll help us as well as he will also let us use his name to acquire a license in any kind of venture that we wish to start here in Thailand.

When we helped him, there was no intention of expecting from him or even to think that some day he will be of great help to us. One simple act of kindness, that’s what we all did and until today he keeps on helping us out.

One evidence of this is that after the Songkran holiday (Thai New Year) and after our little escapade at The Mall Ngamwongwan along with Erscil and Sandy, we went home and were watching TV. We heard a knock and when we open the door it was Pat. We’ve missed this young man for a couple of months since we last saw him.  Not that he doesn’t want to visit us but his part time job and studies constrains him from doing such activity. When I asked him what did he do during the three day holiday, he told us that he spent it doing some electrical wiring jobs and cleaning A/C from several clients. Which eventually led him or them with his Boss to our small abode.



They were driving the car that his Boss bought from us and inside it was a second  hand A/C. he told us that he’s going to give us the used AC. We didn’t know how to respond and he explained to us why and where he got the AC. He told us that one of their clients had several new AC and they discarded the old one. His boss asked the old one and he also asked it from his Boss. When his boss asked him what he’s going to do with it he said that he’s going to give it to his “honorary family”, that is why brought the second hand AC even if it was already late at night.

What touched me was not the AC that he gave but the act that he is continually showing to us, the concern as well as the kind of love that he is showing us. When he asked me what did we do during the Songkran holidays, I told him we just stay inside the house and watched movies the entire three days. He laughed and then told us that once he will have a spare time he will bring us to Pattaya and Hua Hin for a road trip or a tour. I didn’t expect much from the guy because I know he is very busy with his job and with his studies but I know he’s going to do what he has promised.

It made me wonder and amazed why people who doesn’t have much has the heart to give while those who live abundantly or who has a lot. Here is  a young man who sustains himself through his own effort or by his own, but thinks of others instead of thinking for himself. isn’t it the same characteristic or trait that Christ wants us to follow? Pat has professed a couple of months or early this year, whether he really did receive the Lord Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior that would be between him and God alone. All I know is that I could see a huge change in the life of this young man and I hope and pray that he will grow in God’s wisdom in the fullness of time.