Pastor Osteen and Christian Narcissism: Symptom of a Larger Problem

2 09 2014

Daniel B. Wallace

Posted on August 27, 2014 on Youtube was an upbeat little clip from Pastor Osteen in Houston. But not the pastor you are probably thinking of. No, this is not Joel Osteen but his wife and co-pastor, Victoria.

She said with a big smile on her face and with husband Joel standing next to her in nodding approval:

“When we obey God, we’re not doing it for God. I mean, that’s one way to look at it. We’re doing it for ourselves, because God takes pleasure when we’re happy. That’s the thing that gives him the greatest joy this morning. So I want you to know this morning, just do good—for your own self. Do good ’cause God wants you to be happy.

When you come to church, when you worship him, you’re not doing it for God really! You’re doing it for yourself, because that’s what makes God…

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If I Could I Would

29 08 2013

Eyes Wide Open

If I could I would….

Run a marathon…
Lose the last 15 and keep it off forever…
Blog full time for Jesus and not think about paying bills…
Go back to school for my masters degree…

If I could I would…

Freeze my kids right where they’re at…
Get mama and daddy back…
Love my husband even better…
Slow life down, but stay together…

If I could I would….

Visit the holy land…
Weep in Gethsemane…
Bow at calvary and the tomb…
Gazing outward, upward, eternally…

If I could I would….

Make sure every mouth was fed…
Every single heart is led…
To Him, our One, True HOPE…
Always waiting, living, expecting..

But should I? Could I? Would I?

Really would I?

What WILL I do?

How about you?

It’s not about woulda. It’s not about shoulda. And no, it’s not about coulda.

It’s about ARE ya?

Am I?

Am I really…

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Welcome to the Family Yezha Khalyl

14 07 2013

July 8 was a Monday and just like any other Mondays, I thought it was just an ordinary day. But Hey! God’s thoughts is not our thoughts neither are His ways, so out of the ordinary it became an extraordinary for the entire family with some extra frightening news, that is.

I was here at the school doing my usual stuff and again with an another extraordinary task as that day there was an additional very young student that made his debut in our school. To make the very long story longer, I received a call from Sally, who was supposed to just have her regular Monday check up until August which is supposedly our baby’s due. She told me to go to the hospital right away because she is “already dying”, of course there was sarcasm in her voice so I didn’t react to what she just said, I asked her what’s wrong and she told me her blood pressure is way up over the roof (figuratively speaking). That is why the doctor let her stay at the hospital  to check and monitor on her blood pressure, so I went to the hospital right after that.

When I got there I couldn’t see  her in any place and when I called her, she said she was already in the Labor Room. What? Why is she in the labor room, her due was suppose to be on August that is on the Mid of August? There were so many questions in my mind during that time and all I could do was wait outside, waiting for someone to at least explain to me what is going on and what is happening to my wife. All I know is that her doctor told her to stay in the hospital for her blood and sugar to be monitored and now she is in the labor room. There were so many questions indeed and  worst of all I couldn’t call her because I don’t have a phone, my daughter got one but didn’t have any credit left…tsk tsk tsk.

We waited for more than hour outside of the Labor room until finally one of her Doctors came out and explained to me my wife’s condition and situation. Let me recall and relay it to you what I have remembered, I may leave out some details because I already have some minor problems in remembering certain things.

The Lady Doctor told me that Sally’s blood pressure is so high that they have to stabilize it first before they  could perform the CS…Whoaaa! wait!!! at the back of my mind I was asking why do they have to operate on her, is it really that necessary with her current condition? Of course since I don’t have the habit of asking questions I let the good doctor explain everything and I listened attentively.  She told me the need to cut her up and deliver the baby because of her condition and later on she told me the RISK of having the operation with her current condition. She told me that it might not be good for the baby and she(YEZHA) will have very weak lungs and will have to be incubated, there might even a chance that the baby might not make it through. It struck me but I didn’t say anything, all my mind could think is that I know that God will not abandon us and I kept on praying that I leave everything at His feet.  Then the lady Doctor told me about the RISK that Sally will be facing once she will have the operation, She told me that her blood pressure is so high there might be a risk of seizure during the operation and that there might be a non-stop bleeding during the operation which will be very difficult for them to stop it. She told me so many things during that time and all the gory details of what might transpire during the operation..in other words they were preparing me for the inevitable. With all the not so good news that has been relayed to me, all I could do was pray and asked God to be gracious to both my Wife and the baby and that whatever His will for both of them, I am willing to accept it and submit myself to it.

Then the Doctor asked my decision whether to allow them to operate on my wife, I replied to her with a question, Who’s decision was it to have the CS? The Doctor told me that it was my wife’s decision to have it right there and then and it is the best thing to do to avoid farther complications. Then, I told her that if that is what my wife wants then go ahead with the operation, she however assured me that everything she had explained might not happen to my wife but there is still that risk, I again told her to do the operation as long as it will be okay with both my wife and the baby no matter what the result would be, I already have committed  and surrendered it into the hands of God.

After relaying to me everything that I needed to know, the Doctor went back into the labor room and there Khiara and I prayed for her mom and the baby.After a couple of minutes the Doctor came out and told me that my wife would like to have a word with me, so I went inside the Labor room and wore a robe but forgot to wear a slipper…it was only when I was already inside the examination room that I realized that I was the only one who wasn’t wearing any slipper.

When I saw Sally, she was pale and there were some medical gadgets attached to her and she was in oxygen. She told me to get her things as well as the Doctors also talked to me about what will transpire during the operation. Before I left, I asked Sally if she had prayed already and she said Yes but asked me to pray with her as well, so we both prayed amidst all the chatting of the Doctors and the nurses as well as some of the interns, I asked for God’s grace and leave everything into His hands. After we prayed I didn’t realize that the Lady Doctor was watching us. After letting me sign three documents which is for her CS, Tubal Ligation and for the baby’s incubation, all of these documents were in Thai language but the lady doctor explained them to me and all I did was sign all the documents without any doubts and hesitations.after signing all of them the lady Doctor looked at me in the eyes and told me something unexpected, she said “don’t worry, I too am a Christian”. I believe it was her way of assuring me not to worry because everything will be fine and that she is on top of it all, it somehow comforted me but my thought were saying that it’s okay because God is in control of everything.

What she told lets me see God’s hands during that time, how He answered us in our prayers, how He see to it that Sally will be taken cared of by the right Doctor, one who could speak English fluently and most importantly a Doctor who believes in Him. You see that’s how good and gracious my God is, that is why when I heard all of the negative things or unpleasant news, I immediately committed them into my Father’s hand and He was there at the very moment that we needed Him the most.

Another amazing thing that God did was that even if our doctor told us that our baby will have weak lungs, the findings was way too different from what I’ve seen. Although she was incubated, she was the only one who didn’t have a life support and an oxygen to help her breath. Her only problem was that her sugar was way too low apart from that she was breathing fine and as the Doctor told me after Sally delivered the baby that they did well. One of the odd things that she couldn’t believe was that the baby’s Umbilical cord was entangled on her neck three times, which means if Sally did decide to have a normal delivery there was a chance that the baby might not make it.

Today both of them are just recuperating , the good news is we will be able to take home the baby when Sally will be released and will be allowed to go home already. Even the Doctor couldn’t believe what she saw and how every thing turned out but for me I am certain and convinced in my heart that God has planned everything way even we have asked for it.

To end my post, let me thank my NCF family for being there right away, to our Pastor and his family Ptr. Tonieth Tan, to the members of the fellowship, to Joy Sharani Castro and Sally’s Department Head Teacher Wattana, to Juvelyn, Vince(Who went to the hospital right away when he heard the news), to teacher Beth, Roda, Jonah and for those who sent their messages on my wife’s FB account, to her friends and to our family. Our heartfelt gratitude and thanks for all of your prayers.

To my wife, Thank you very much for giving us this precious and wonderful gift and I cannot thank you enough for the sacrifices that you’ve gone through all these past several months..I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND ALWAYS WILL!!!

To our Yezha, you are blessed and loved so much, we’ve been waiting for you for almost 4 years and now God granted our prayers. may you grow in God’s grace and wisdom and may your life be used for His ministry when the right time comes. Welcome to our family we love you very much.





How Beautiful Are Your Feet My Son

19 06 2013

My youngest son sometimes surprises and amazes us, he speaks of things that are only being spoken by adults. Yesterday my wife shared to me a part of their conversation, there were just the two of them on the table at that time and the rest of our kids were somewhere else.

He’s like an adult when he talks about something, I could sense that he is an observant and a deep thinker kind of a boy. He shared to his mother something about his future, take note he’s just in his 5th grade this time but that didn’t hinder him in thinking about his future and what he wants to be. Without resolve he told his mother he wants to become either a Teacher or a Pastor. Okay, both of these careers needs passion and both involves touching someone else’s lives. When he was asked why he chose these two careers, he said it is just the way it is. If he will not become a Teacher he would want to become a Pastor instead. When asked why he wanted to become  a Pastor, his reply was there is something strange that he’s feeling that someday he’s going to become a Pastor and will be preaching the Gospel all around the world.

That’s way too deep for such a young mind to think of, hey! who am I to stand against the will of God if He will use any of my sons to become His servant. Another thing I have observed with him is that he likes to read and ponder on what he’s reading in the Bible and later on give his thoughts on what he just read.

Oh! I hope and pray that indeed he will never change his mind and his desire to serve God and become one of His messengers in any part of the globe. 

To my son Kiff Zee here is something you that you should always bear in your heart, soul and mind in Isaiah 52: 7…

7 How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him that bringeth good tidings, that publisheth peace; that bringeth good tidings of good, that publisheth salvation; that saith unto Zion, Thy God reigneth!

 





Let Christ Rip it Off

18 06 2013

imagesAfter more than a year of staying within the Church and School building we’ve finally moved out and found a home that we can at least call our own, it was not really what we have hoped for at first. However, because of some circumstances in which I believe our first choice was not what God wants us to live in, we chose the current house. It’s quite big actually but who are we to complain, knowing that it is close to the church and school it will be convenient for my family.

Most of our visitors expressed their appreciation saying that it is such a beautiful house, Hey! isn’t it what God wants us to have..to have the best because we are His children? Anyway, there is no doubt about it, it is indeed a beautiful house however we found several small problems as we start to dwell in it. One of them is the toilet door at the second floor, we couldn’t close the door because the old rusted door hinge gave up and it was actually blocking or preventing the door to be shut tight. What the previous tenants did was tie a straw and made it as its temporary lock to just keep the door closed. Unfortunately, if you just rely on what they’ve just made, you could see the person inside the toilet. It’s quite stupid to think that you made a temporary lock to close the door but it cannot be  totally shut.

What we did then was remove the old  rusted and broken door hinge which has been preventing the door to shut, it took me a few minutes to rip it off from its place. It was stuck and my guess is that it has been there for a very long time now which i definitely think would have given discomfort to those who were living in that house during those times. After several minutes, I finally was able to remove it and it was only then the door can be totally shut. As I ponder upon it, a thought came to my mind. Sometimes we are like the toilet door, We have Christ in our hearts and we claim that we are His children. However, there some few things from our past that we cling onto, old sins, old grudges that we refuse to let go that is why there are times we couldn’t see God’s hands in our lives. God cannot compromise sin and He never will, no matter how BIG or SMALL you may think it is as long as there is sin in our hearts. God can not  give His full blessings to us. Just like the old, rusty and broken door hinge, we have to let Christ rip it off from us because it is only by leaving everything at His feet we will be ale to find true comfort and peace. It is only then   that we will be able to have a closer and tight relationship with God if we have learned to let go of those things that constantly bothers us and hinders us from fully serving our Lord and King.

It is only by surrendering everything to Jesus that we will be able to finally live in peace and comfort even in the times of struggles and challenges that may come into our live.

Matthew 11:28-30  (KJV)

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.





Will He be Happy?

13 06 2013

Kiff Zee (Left) Dan Joe (Center) Rod Vincent (Right)

This is the question that has been asked by one of our youngest students when I asked him to show his worksheet to one of the teachers here in our school. Although my title refers to God, the question of this young boy was referring to my wife who was at that time present in the school.

You see, Dan Joe is not just your average young boy. He’s got a sharp and inquisitive mind too inquisitive that whenever he hears something new he would definitely try it out. He is also a smart kid which is evident not just in school but at their home as well.

However, one of the downside of his being too smart is that he gets bored easily. He’s often times too lazy to do his worksheet thus you need to remind him or sit with him the entire time to him from time to time  in order to finish his task.

Yesterday was different, after I handed to him his task he actually got right into it and finished it way even before lunch time. A boy is a boy and he is not concern on how his handwriting is going to look, all he wanted was to finish his task way ahead of everybody, so you can expect that it was not really that good.

Anyway, after lunch break everyone went to their usual stuff, playing, chatting and teasing each other. I was thinking of not letting him go up into the learning room anymore and just let him take his afternoon nap right away since I know that he will not be doing anything  but just bother his classmates or make those funny noises or even sing in his office…he’s a handful you know and believe you me he just don’t listen to anybody except to me and my wife and that has been proven in the next part of this post that I am going to tell you.

So, everyone was already upstairs and he was left behind. When my wife asked him if he has finished his task he said “Yes” excitedly. My wife told him to  get his worksheet and show it to her, so he went upstairs screaming “It’s TIME!!!” (We don’t have a ring bell).  I was expecting him to go down right away but it was taking him a bit too long so I went upstairs to check out not just him but the rest of the students and there I saw him sitting down and doing something on his worksheet. So I approached him and asked him, “Didn’t Teacher Sally tell you to go down and show your work to her?” DanJoe looked at me straight into the eyes and there was certain hesitation on him. Then I asked him if he’s finished with his task and he said yes. So, I said what are you waiting for, go downstairs and don’t let teacher Sally wait for you or else she’ll get angry. It was then that he asked this question, “Will she be happy?” I said yes, she’ll be happy to see your work.

He clutched his worksheet in his hands held it firmly and head to the door, so I went back checking on the other students. After several minutes I could hear one of our students telling Dan Joe to go down and I saw him standing next to the door. When he was told to go down  he head once more to the door and actually went out and goes straight to the stairs but he still didn’t go down the stairs. So, I went to him and led him downstairs and while we were going down he asked me again seeking for an assurance…”Are you sure she will be happy?”

Such a question pricked me and the kind of desire that Dan Joe have to make sure that the moment he presents his work that his teacher will be pleased at what he has done for the day. Such situation I have asked in my life is God or will God be happy with me when the time come that I will face Him and present at His feet all the things that I’ve done in this world? Will He be proud of me and will I be worthy of any rewards from Him knowing that I haven’t done much for Him?

What have I done for Him that is worthy of praise or any rewards for that matter? Is my life worthy to even be blessed knowing that most of the time I only thought of myself rather than doing the things that pleases Him? Have we even asked that question? Same question to ourselves if God is happy with our lives or is He happy with the kind of life that we are living today?

Will He, my God be pleased if He sees my achievement at the end of my day? Such question can only be answered by each one of us personally.

Colossians 3:1-4

1 If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.

2 Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.

3 For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.

4 When Christ, [who is] our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory.





Instructions and Warnings Do We Love Them or Hate Them, Forget Them or Share Them?

12 06 2013

Reblogged from an FB Friend

Settled In Heaven Blog

SIH HALTAL ICON5) A fool despiseth his father’s instruction: but he that regardeth reproof is prudent.
6) In the house of the righteous [is] much treasure: but in the revenues of the wicked is trouble.
7) The lips of the wise disperse knowledge: but the heart of the foolish [doeth] not so.
8) The sacrifice of the wicked [is] an abomination to the LORD: but the prayer of the upright [is] his delight.  (Proverbs 15:5-8)

For the SIH Devotional On This Subject:

http://wp.me/pU88A-2qZ

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